Hi, my name is Lacey, and I've got blogging and writing commitment issues.
Wow. Banner year in the blogging department huh?
Truth is, I've got issues (yeah, yeah, we all do) – but I mean in terms of self- investment.
Something I've concluded as of recent: it's easier to get the things done that you need to get done as opposed to those you want to get done. At least in my case. And to some degree, I think this is a gender thing. I know I've seen it in other females, particularly relatives whom sacrifice the things that they want to do- hobbies etc. in favor of getting done other tasks at hand. It's easy. That pile of laundry? Well, it's not going to do itself. I've got the amazing talent to ALWAYS find something higher on the “priority” list over something I'd genuinely enjoy doing at almost any time. And it's hard for me not to borderline beat myself up when I elect to do something in terms of self investment versus something that should be qualified under “everyday life occurrence”.
One funny thing about this too is that it's a point of contention between Andrew and I- he isn't always able to fathom the concept that although there's things I want to do- and he definitely WANTS me to do them- I just can't seem to find the time or get myself to prioritize that over other things that need doing. He doesn't understand how I can't turn the blind eye to that mountain of laundry that's staring me in the face, or the project around the house that I've been meaning to do, and POOF there's time to do it right now and all of a sudden I'm elbow deep in it. And don't get me wrong- Andrew does stuff around the house, plus he technically has three jobs so his time to “get stuff done” is jeopardized in trying to balance that in conjunction with some kind of a life. It's a difficult concept through and through.
And truth be told, I'm awful at time management. As I'm writing this right now, know where I am? In my car. My laptop was brought with me to work today just so I could sit here in my car and write, because I thought to myself- you know what? I can read a billion magazines and feel empty and unaccomplished (I'm a read it cover-to-cover kind of girl, and a lunch hour doesn't always afford me to get through an entire magazine) or I could make an attempt at writing just a little bit every day, and see where that goes. And actually reap that reward. How does that sound?
So, once again, back on the wagon. This is not to say that I've been having no fun at all- quite on the contrary, as it's summertime on Cape Cod, and well- if you can't make that work, then I'd say there's bigger issues. And one of the greatest things I've learned, in part from words from my grandmother (and she was actually referring to the dinner table/ holiday table when saying this) was “If you want it to be nice, YOU have to make it nice.”. In other words, don't expect things to be up to your standards- you've got to make what you want. Basic philosophy, right? And yet, somehow, it harks back to something I know I believe deeply. And kind of have conformed to for sometime, even though I proverbially fall off that wagon from time to time too. You've got to make things happen in your life- it's not always going to come for you. This, of course can lead to good or bad decisions, but hey- it's only one life you've got, right?
I think I can, I think I can...




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